It truly amuses me...

From every angle, i'm surrounded by people who want me in their lives, yet I want out of theirs. My natural inclinations to be kind and never burn bridges and try to preserve everything is making this difficult; to leave them behind. It is not with any sort of malicious intent, nothing of the sort. I've just seen everything that comes from them all as being truly ephemeral. Fleeting.

I see them as misguided... Just as I see myself.

I can't even romanticize about love or relationships anymore. All I feel nowadays is stagnancy, apathy, and anger. My cynicism has always been here... it's just much more naked nowadays. And I am cynical of goddamned everything.

I don't give a flying fuck at a rolling oil barrel about sex, relationships, love... Christ. 195 dead in India due to religious bullshit... and in the US... a dead Wal-Mart employee. Cause of Death: Materialism, Greed, Stupidity. Fuck this planet, and all whom inhabit it. Myself included.

... I'm basically posting this, only with the intentions of Rocko reading it... she's the only person I know who still has one of these running.

Love/Hate

Steven

Hahaha. I'm bored so I cruise back through xangas and I end up finding people who scream insults and all sorts of bullshit at me from months ago. God, I love it. Knowing full and well the retorts made are full of shit, I laugh. Goddamn Me? I think not.

Welcome to your real life. And when you're out of school, it gets worse.

And if you read this... I Win.

You know, sometimes I think I should just kill myself.

.... but FUCK THAT!

So... how long has it been since I updated this thing last? Hmm... too long to count.

Restart your watches.